Thursday, December 26, 2013

The Universe is always listening

I told the Universe exactly what I was looking for and it replied in kind. I still don’t understand how this happens but I have complete faith in it because it’s been proven for me in my life more than once.

At the time, I didn’t realize that I was painting the picture of my perfect companion. All I’ve been doing for the last couple months is what I always do –analyzing and researching. Except, instead of the normal techie way, i.e. the Internet, I’ve been researching inside my own mind, my heart, and my soul. Analyzing what I really want. Making mental notes of exactly everything, no matter how insignificant the trait seemed. I know full well that the likelihood of finding such a person is rare, at best, and I never had the unrealistic expectation of finding this exact person but I needed to know what I really wanted. A guideline, if you will. And then I could go from there. Being the tolerant person that I am, I find it easy to compromise on many levels. I had no visions of perfection. Then, as I often do, I continued my mental research long after I had the answers. I was over-analyzing at this point. Typical. But, for me, there was nothing else to do at that point. I wouldn’t just say “Ok, I have the exact specs, I’m done.” There are too many facets to us as humans for me to limit it like that.

At the same time, I began telling a few friends and family that I think I’m ready to start looking for a companion. Sometimes friends know friends who have other single friends. That approach seemed so vague and random to me, but I had to start somewhere. And, a friend of mine (also single) and I were planning on joining a dating site in January. Again, I had to start somewhere. I also thought about Craigslist. I’ve bought and sold lots of things on Craigslist. It’s a great venue and it’s free. Let’s see what’s on there in the personals. I had never perused those ads before and wow, it’s, well, entertaining, to say the least! A few of the ads seemed sincere, but for the most part, these people couldn’t spell or form a complete sentence to save their lives. And it was amazing to me the number of people looking for casual or immoral relations. But I kept on – weeding through the repeat ads and those with needs considerably different from mine. Then I found the one - I didn’t know it at the time, of course. But the ad was well written and he sounded like the type of person I was looking for. I replied to it with some of my own details and hoped for a response and, ultimately, a date.

The date went so well. I would never have imagined. Except, I had imagined it. That idea I had in the back of my mind of this perfect person for me and the perfect date, had been realized. As the night drew on, the conversation unearthed more and more of those details.

I don’t know where this will lead but I am very hopeful. For now, I have no specific expectations. Well, maybe I do. Somehow the Universe knows when and what to listen for.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

Happy VERY BELATED Birthday to Lee!

Lee Tree!

Please, please, PLEASE accept my apology for not posting on your birthday! To the rest of you, her birthday was November 26th. It's funny, I can preach about how we need to calm down and mellow out and slow down, but I am just as vulnerable to getting caught up as everyone else is. My thought is that if I can recognize my stress level and reign it back in, then I'm accomplishing something. It's not about failing - it's about getting back on track when you do.

For years, for each of us, my mom would make our favorite food for our birthday dinner. Mine was lasagna, Kami loved liver and onions and Kate's favorite was teriyaki chicken. To this day, I have no idea what Lee's favorite food is. Most of the time it landed on Thanksgiving so her special birthday dinner, while being a much larger affair than the rest of ours, was always turkey. And now that we've all moved out, I usually just get her birthday gift to her on Thanksgiving as well since that's when we all get together. Sadly, this year I forgot to bring it to her - and it would have been 2 days late by then. If I can get it together in the next couple weeks she MIGHT have it before Christmas. No guarantees though. And it will be wrapped in Christmas paper.

Lee, you are the ultimate eccentric. This is not a negative connotation. You have always been the most unconventional person I know. You do what you want, what you feel is right, and you are the most caring, selfless person I know. Your work with the pups at the shelter is, I can bet, a Godsend to those people and animals. Your creativity as an artist is inspiring and I wish you the best with everything. You won't need my well wishes, though, because I know that you will be successful with life in a way that many others can't even fathom. You always have been. It hasn't been without its downfalls, of course. You've been to hell and back in your life (I know, I had my own trip to that particular state of hell as well) and you returned home with an understanding and awareness that only comes from such a traumatic trip.

I hope you had a wonderful birthday, Lee!

I love you!